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I've been wanting to include more commentary on some of my recent eow recaps. Combined with a noticeable midweek slump despite doing 3 journal pages every day, I decided that I needed some kind of mid-week post to keep up the momentum that eow recap sets.. I'm thinking that it's going to be a kind of 1000 words style post. Some days it'll be more rambley like my recent minis, but others might be better thought out "essays(?)," essentially, I just wanna have an excuse to write more and focus on my energy on something other than scrolling through twitter all the damn time...
—time lag
so I published v1 of the website. when I went to update the code, I noticed how it had taken me a year to commit to actually publishing something on my site. I remember reading a quote about how you can decide that you want to do something but the follow through doesn't always necessarily follow immediately after. For the life of me I can't remember if it was a make art not content quote or if it was from the artist way in one of the earlier chapters. I'm sure I'll find it at some point and make an amendment to this later. anyway, realizing that time lag is one of my biggest weak points. I'll decide to do something but not actually follow through on the project/idea/dream until much later. there's more to dig into here, but this is as far as I've gotten with this particular train of thought...
—stove pots
I used to have a close friend where we would spend a lot of time in long meandering discussions. I've been reminiscing on our friendship for a variety of reasons, but I feel like I've really been missing his particular way with challenging my ideas or building on them in fascinating ways. I hope that my friend is doing well, wherever he is now. In another friendship, I used to send her voice logs detailing whatever particular ideas and things I was "cooking away on." I used to say, "I have this idea but its still underbaked/half-baked/cooking away" to describe something like time lag. something I wanted to come back and explore more after more thinking, or discussion, or journalling... I suppose there's something to be said in that I do my best work by giving myself the space and time to work on something... to refine it more and more until its the way I want it to be. Derek Sivers had introduced me to this idea of slow thinking. something that runs completely opposite to the way social media is constantly shoving something new down your throat.
—search for meaning
I've been debating a social media break for a while... I keep seeing signs that point to the necessity of one, but I'm scared I suppose.... how am I supposed to feel connected when you cut off the potential for connection? I thought of turning the midweek post into a link list of sorts but I don't think that I'm using social media to currently curate either.. my relationship to socmed has changed in a variety of ways over the years, but I feel like it is not doing me any justice currently... ugh. this really needs more nuance, but I'm essentially just... stream of consciousness journaling now.
I'd like to get back to a certain style of writing I started to develop when I had a really strong fascination with newsletters, magazines, and zine making... I want to strengthen my writing voice again. I feel like I've lost it. or has it changed so completely that I don't really recognize it? also, man, I need to get back into writing proper sentences and usually correct punctuation etc etc.
—consumption, curation, creation
was actually the title of a newsletter I was going to start. I eventually settled on "in public pursuit" but the newsletter never really got off the ground. anyway, my three Cs here remind me of what it is I'm kinda trying to do right now. well maybe not what I do right right now, but kind of a general direction of what I want to do? how I want to operate? now that I think about it... maybe there's too much "operating" and not enough living.
—on the status of the outline
as I wrote up the last section, I had a lovely thought:
but alas, I don't seem to have a brain so instead we get... ongoing conversation with myself? anyway, more ideas to work on and thinking about in the form of: you are not a business, you don't need [static]. something something operating agreement? something something business philosophy? branding? perhaps instead the marrying of identity and values and ideals into something that doesn't feel.... corporate?
in 2022, I didn't want to set resolutions. I wanted to go a little easier on myself and live presently through a series of "core values and intentions" that I thought would help me to navigate the confusion of who I am and what I want to do. there's the potential for substance there but I never really gave it a second thought after doing the initial write-up and a couple of minor tweaks... but I feel like it could be married very nicely with consumption, curation, and creation, as well as my life outline... perhaps I make that next weeks write up. maybe I add the write up topic to my eow to give myself direction next time.. iteration after iteration babey!
maybe instead of creating structure I just let myself write whatever as long as its 1000 words every midweek....
stats:
word count: 1,016 words
reading time: 3 minutes, 41 seconds
I've been wanting to include more commentary on some of my recent eow recaps. Combined with a noticeable midweek slump despite doing 3 journal pages every day, I decided that I needed some kind of mid-week post to keep up the momentum that eow recap sets.. I'm thinking that it's going to be a kind of 1000 words style post. Some days it'll be more rambley like my recent minis, but others might be better thought out "essays(?)," essentially, I just wanna have an excuse to write more and focus on my energy on something other than scrolling through twitter all the damn time...
—time lag
so I published v1 of the website. when I went to update the code, I noticed how it had taken me a year to commit to actually publishing something on my site. I remember reading a quote about how you can decide that you want to do something but the follow through doesn't always necessarily follow immediately after. For the life of me I can't remember if it was a make art not content quote or if it was from the artist way in one of the earlier chapters. I'm sure I'll find it at some point and make an amendment to this later. anyway, realizing that time lag is one of my biggest weak points. I'll decide to do something but not actually follow through on the project/idea/dream until much later. there's more to dig into here, but this is as far as I've gotten with this particular train of thought...
—stove pots
I used to have a close friend where we would spend a lot of time in long meandering discussions. I've been reminiscing on our friendship for a variety of reasons, but I feel like I've really been missing his particular way with challenging my ideas or building on them in fascinating ways. I hope that my friend is doing well, wherever he is now. In another friendship, I used to send her voice logs detailing whatever particular ideas and things I was "cooking away on." I used to say, "I have this idea but its still underbaked/half-baked/cooking away" to describe something like time lag. something I wanted to come back and explore more after more thinking, or discussion, or journalling... I suppose there's something to be said in that I do my best work by giving myself the space and time to work on something... to refine it more and more until its the way I want it to be. Derek Sivers had introduced me to this idea of slow thinking. something that runs completely opposite to the way social media is constantly shoving something new down your throat.
—search for meaning
I've been debating a social media break for a while... I keep seeing signs that point to the necessity of one, but I'm scared I suppose.... how am I supposed to feel connected when you cut off the potential for connection? I thought of turning the midweek post into a link list of sorts but I don't think that I'm using social media to currently curate either.. my relationship to socmed has changed in a variety of ways over the years, but I feel like it is not doing me any justice currently... ugh. this really needs more nuance, but I'm essentially just... stream of consciousness journaling now.
I'd like to get back to a certain style of writing I started to develop when I had a really strong fascination with newsletters, magazines, and zine making... I want to strengthen my writing voice again. I feel like I've lost it. or has it changed so completely that I don't really recognize it? also, man, I need to get back into writing proper sentences and usually correct punctuation etc etc.
—consumption, curation, creation
was actually the title of a newsletter I was going to start. I eventually settled on "in public pursuit" but the newsletter never really got off the ground. anyway, my three Cs here remind me of what it is I'm kinda trying to do right now. well maybe not what I do right right now, but kind of a general direction of what I want to do? how I want to operate? now that I think about it... maybe there's too much "operating" and not enough living.
—on the status of the outline
as I wrote up the last section, I had a lovely thought:
if I had any semblance of a brain, I would have turned the midweek into the outline post that I worked on, and used it to talk about all the value ideas I have
but alas, I don't seem to have a brain so instead we get... ongoing conversation with myself? anyway, more ideas to work on and thinking about in the form of: you are not a business, you don't need [static]. something something operating agreement? something something business philosophy? branding? perhaps instead the marrying of identity and values and ideals into something that doesn't feel.... corporate?
in 2022, I didn't want to set resolutions. I wanted to go a little easier on myself and live presently through a series of "core values and intentions" that I thought would help me to navigate the confusion of who I am and what I want to do. there's the potential for substance there but I never really gave it a second thought after doing the initial write-up and a couple of minor tweaks... but I feel like it could be married very nicely with consumption, curation, and creation, as well as my life outline... perhaps I make that next weeks write up. maybe I add the write up topic to my eow to give myself direction next time.. iteration after iteration babey!
maybe instead of creating structure I just let myself write whatever as long as its 1000 words every midweek....
stats:
word count: 1,016 words
reading time: 3 minutes, 41 seconds
