03/10-03/16

[zoomieyo]

R.E.P.O.R.T.

reflecting
did a couple of voice logs this week and kind of rambled about current state of affairs in regard to life in general. literally reflecting on choices made and behaviors and such... wanting to do tarot but also knowing exactly what tarot is going to tell me.... get to work! do something! take action! thinking about how this is one of my biggest struggles and a recurring theme i need to work on..
something something about work and tying identity to it too.. had the realization that my discomfort with my current job is a direct result of being tired of doing customer service... thinking about next steps to get out of customer service... reflecting on suggestions from my parents.... dot dot dot.... much to consider and think about

enjoying
unashamedly enjoying cancelled half-made plans, working the opening shift to have more evening to myself, and my brother coming home for spring break.. i like having him around- hes so goofy and i really like to spend time with him.
also so much pinterest lately... ive been getting a lot of inspo from it for some reason..?????
getting off of work and the sun still being out- dont get me wrong my whole clock was thrown off with daylight savings time, but it really is so pleasant to not be driving home in the dark

playing
so much minecraft... we finally finished our castle but now we dont know how to decorate it... i want to do some grindy kinda stuff and make some farms and build up.... infrastructure? for our base but idek if we really need it with the way we play... i need to make a mob grinder so we can get some more exp so we can better enchant weapons and i wanna make a villager trading hall/breeder... then i think i want to hop back into fancy decorating for our castle but also landscaping/making food farms etc etc....
also redownloaded promise of wizard because rutile is in the white day gacha and man.... id really like to pull for him. i should really plan a whole reread of the story and find some tuts for easy grinding...

obsessing
finally committed to my recurring obsession and did some sketch drafts for a neocities site.... ive been thinking about it all week and i keep looking at other neocities.... so i started tonight on reading some html tutorials but i didnt get super far... the skill gap between my current html/css abilities and my desired site layouts is so vast... its gonna take some work but it will be so worth it.... i need to sit and actually dedicate some time to build it and playing around... i dont want to really use premade layouts but i know im gonna have to use flexboxes to get what i want design and layout wise.... but thats part of the point!!!!! learn a new skill!!!!! build a site all of my own!!!!!!
also been obsessing over bamboo pole legs 11cm dolls.... someone tweeted about them a while back and MAN do i wanna get the sewing machine back out and try my hand at making one. i have some scrap fabric i want to test with before i go and commit to getting like.. doll felt..? but i really want to get back into sewing and i want to try making some plush dolls!

recommending
been rereading dune on my lunch break (feels like a treat) but i saw dune pt 2 semi recently.... my recommendation is to see it in theatres for the experience and to take time to enjoy something!!!!
also Getting Out of Your Head... i voice logged the other day (recording myself talking to myself as a form of journaling) and the mental clarity i had afterward.... putting your thoughts (vague, multifaceted) into words (having definite shapes and meanings) to sort through the mental clutter in your mind..? i forget how much i get into my own head and how refreshing it is to just set it all down and sort through it and suddenly your problems arent so bad

treating
mom made pecan brownies this week and man they were so good. she also did this carbonara(?) baked chicken dish and it was super good over noodles. also twix bars have been a big treat so far this week?

weekly recap

what brought me joy?
pleasant convos with my coworkers
spending time with mom watching movies
playing minecraft with j
my brother coming home for spring break

something i want to remember forever
finding what you dont like is just as important as finding what you do like -mom

gratitude
twix bars at lunch
family
downtime

what was hard for me?
relaxing after tense situations, always feeling on edge
de escalation with disgruntled people at work
overthinking and doubting myself
car troubles

this week in 3 words
rough
unfocused
heavy

3 goals for the upcoming week
eat breakfast everyday
make basic layout for neocities site
journal at least once

this week i want to feel
focused
at ease
relaxed