hello september!! hello mini 1000!!
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zoomieyoI always feel the need to sit down and write on a sunday... and when I finally do force myself in front of whatever blank word document- I am struggling to find a good writing program.. I used to use apple notes but its clunky on the computer, and I have issues with notion... I tinkered with obsidian too.. so instead I now type directly into the dreamwidth text editor and move on with my life! I digress- I feel the need to say sorry for living life.. for not writing as much since I let my fear eat me all up.
it's raining currently, and I just came inside from it since I was swimming in the pool. september is here! and it started slowly and peacefully and lovely with a day off. I made tapioca pearls at home, and combined it with some milk tea protein powder I've been enjoying. listening to my parents coax our little boy dog into laying down (he was standing up and falling asleep after swimming).
I've seen a couple of challenges- mini 1000 is going on right now- and a challenge for 100 words of fiction a day over on tumblr.. these kind of coincide nicely with how I've been feeling- a return home.. a desire to go back to all the things I've neglected these past few months, and a way to prepare for the future ahead of me. I miss playing bass, I haven't done much in the way of pottery, I miss rock climbing and I miss streaming.. I'm preparing applications for graduate school and the JET program, I'm trying to figure out if I should try competitive bodybuilding or some kind of fitness instagram.. I want to try out journaling and decoden and resin and all kinds of random craft projects, try finishing that cosplay I started... I just feel this sense of "man, I'd really like to do more than just... lay around.." I'd like to meet new people and develop better relationships.. keep up with what people are working on, see whatever new progress they make on their own projects and goals.
I sit here at my freshly cleaned desk (she has been buried under a mountain of clothes) and I feel like its a lovely fresh start. I want to do things at this desk. I want to work on my site and make updates to this blog. I want to draw and post art of my favorite characters, or write up blog posts, stories, and explore writing more again...
I feel like I always talk in wants or wishes and never concrete "here's what I've made!" and I'd like to change that.. I'd like to do weekly reports again, I'd like to make time for hobbies, and new ventures in my life. build up a nice little pc and desk setup, start to dabble in fun things again.. stop taking life so seriously in the daily grind.. a job is just a job. I really thought I had to find meaning in it or something..
I just turned 25 this last month. I treated myself to a lovely solo cruise and had a really great time. I want to do a tarot spread for the year ahead. I want to have more fun. let go of everything silly and just learn to enjoy what it is I'm doing and where I'm at.
I want to update my tags here, update my sticky and give more details as to who I am.. uhm.. maybe update my layout? make some art for my site.. play more stardew valley too.. well.. I'm off to make cookies now since my mom mentioned it and it would be really nice to sit and enjoy a warm cookie. I might work on a little ghost post thing for the 100 words challenge on tumblr.. wanted to make a joke about haunting the narrative and bad luck thing...
oh boo... just checked the word count and I'm sitting at 657 before this sentence.. I swear all my thoughts can be neatly contained in about 500 words.. maybe that should be my daily challenge.. 500 words gets me all warmed up and ready for whatever else. that horrible buzzing feeling in me is quelled even if it is just nonsense like this stream of consciousness.. need to get back into morning pages, need to push myself to write more words everyday.. need to push myself to have fun ahahaha. kind of regret not preordering that jisoupy "this is my climbing shirt" and giving myself a uniform for climbing.. sometimes the easiest thing to do is just make a bag for Thing (pottery and climbing bags) that has all my Gear (uniform, tools, shoes, etc) and just make it 100% easier to do the thing after work. well, it'll all work itself out and I won't have to worry I suppose. put it out there that you want it, work towards it, and the universe will send it haha. mail order wishes... I suppose?
I'd just like to have a lot of fun, work hard for the meaningful stuff, and keep growing and learning and creating and being positive. I'd like to meet new people and help them do all the same stuff. I really just. want to keep having fun. oh my... all this at 888 words. feels good. feels right.. but god its always so damn far away.. word counts are hard!! and I'm stream of consciousness-ing right now so it isn't like I'm limiting myself at all!! 1000 words... how the hell was I doing that in the past for the other mini 1000s... goodness.
keep thinking about streaming and creating and climbing and playing bass.. who do I want to be? I keep debating about pottery class round 2.. I signed up for open studio but didn't even go.. granted I was kind of busy but it is always about making time for what you want to do. I could have carved out time to go after work. I could have made my goal of 10 pieces.. I feel like.. I need to be better about follow through ahaha. I get nervous to talk about my work and my goals and my dreams because it partially dispels the magic, it feels like I'm doing them when I talk about them, but I think I'm also afraid to be held accountable for them too.. haha.. 4:41 pm as I write this. the messages are always there if you look for them :) how can you talk about goals and dreams and wishes without dispelling the magic of them?
I keep looking at this old digi camera I have and I feel like I should carry it around with me. take more pictures and stuff. I hear my mom rattling around in the oven.. I just need to hit word count mom! I'm sorry! I wanted to make cookies! but do you know how hard (but worth it!) it is to hit 1000 words of pure nonsense for my blog!!!!!!!
4:44 is my angel number.. feels like another message.. everything will work itself out. you're on the right path- quit overthinking it so much. feels like guidance. another reminder to return home to the stuff I love. and as I finish this up, 1,226 words hit..,
it's raining currently, and I just came inside from it since I was swimming in the pool. september is here! and it started slowly and peacefully and lovely with a day off. I made tapioca pearls at home, and combined it with some milk tea protein powder I've been enjoying. listening to my parents coax our little boy dog into laying down (he was standing up and falling asleep after swimming).
I've seen a couple of challenges- mini 1000 is going on right now- and a challenge for 100 words of fiction a day over on tumblr.. these kind of coincide nicely with how I've been feeling- a return home.. a desire to go back to all the things I've neglected these past few months, and a way to prepare for the future ahead of me. I miss playing bass, I haven't done much in the way of pottery, I miss rock climbing and I miss streaming.. I'm preparing applications for graduate school and the JET program, I'm trying to figure out if I should try competitive bodybuilding or some kind of fitness instagram.. I want to try out journaling and decoden and resin and all kinds of random craft projects, try finishing that cosplay I started... I just feel this sense of "man, I'd really like to do more than just... lay around.." I'd like to meet new people and develop better relationships.. keep up with what people are working on, see whatever new progress they make on their own projects and goals.
I sit here at my freshly cleaned desk (she has been buried under a mountain of clothes) and I feel like its a lovely fresh start. I want to do things at this desk. I want to work on my site and make updates to this blog. I want to draw and post art of my favorite characters, or write up blog posts, stories, and explore writing more again...
I feel like I always talk in wants or wishes and never concrete "here's what I've made!" and I'd like to change that.. I'd like to do weekly reports again, I'd like to make time for hobbies, and new ventures in my life. build up a nice little pc and desk setup, start to dabble in fun things again.. stop taking life so seriously in the daily grind.. a job is just a job. I really thought I had to find meaning in it or something..
I just turned 25 this last month. I treated myself to a lovely solo cruise and had a really great time. I want to do a tarot spread for the year ahead. I want to have more fun. let go of everything silly and just learn to enjoy what it is I'm doing and where I'm at.
I want to update my tags here, update my sticky and give more details as to who I am.. uhm.. maybe update my layout? make some art for my site.. play more stardew valley too.. well.. I'm off to make cookies now since my mom mentioned it and it would be really nice to sit and enjoy a warm cookie. I might work on a little ghost post thing for the 100 words challenge on tumblr.. wanted to make a joke about haunting the narrative and bad luck thing...
oh boo... just checked the word count and I'm sitting at 657 before this sentence.. I swear all my thoughts can be neatly contained in about 500 words.. maybe that should be my daily challenge.. 500 words gets me all warmed up and ready for whatever else. that horrible buzzing feeling in me is quelled even if it is just nonsense like this stream of consciousness.. need to get back into morning pages, need to push myself to write more words everyday.. need to push myself to have fun ahahaha. kind of regret not preordering that jisoupy "this is my climbing shirt" and giving myself a uniform for climbing.. sometimes the easiest thing to do is just make a bag for Thing (pottery and climbing bags) that has all my Gear (uniform, tools, shoes, etc) and just make it 100% easier to do the thing after work. well, it'll all work itself out and I won't have to worry I suppose. put it out there that you want it, work towards it, and the universe will send it haha. mail order wishes... I suppose?
I'd just like to have a lot of fun, work hard for the meaningful stuff, and keep growing and learning and creating and being positive. I'd like to meet new people and help them do all the same stuff. I really just. want to keep having fun. oh my... all this at 888 words. feels good. feels right.. but god its always so damn far away.. word counts are hard!! and I'm stream of consciousness-ing right now so it isn't like I'm limiting myself at all!! 1000 words... how the hell was I doing that in the past for the other mini 1000s... goodness.
keep thinking about streaming and creating and climbing and playing bass.. who do I want to be? I keep debating about pottery class round 2.. I signed up for open studio but didn't even go.. granted I was kind of busy but it is always about making time for what you want to do. I could have carved out time to go after work. I could have made my goal of 10 pieces.. I feel like.. I need to be better about follow through ahaha. I get nervous to talk about my work and my goals and my dreams because it partially dispels the magic, it feels like I'm doing them when I talk about them, but I think I'm also afraid to be held accountable for them too.. haha.. 4:41 pm as I write this. the messages are always there if you look for them :) how can you talk about goals and dreams and wishes without dispelling the magic of them?
I keep looking at this old digi camera I have and I feel like I should carry it around with me. take more pictures and stuff. I hear my mom rattling around in the oven.. I just need to hit word count mom! I'm sorry! I wanted to make cookies! but do you know how hard (but worth it!) it is to hit 1000 words of pure nonsense for my blog!!!!!!!
4:44 is my angel number.. feels like another message.. everything will work itself out. you're on the right path- quit overthinking it so much. feels like guidance. another reminder to return home to the stuff I love. and as I finish this up, 1,226 words hit..,
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Date: 2024-09-02 04:40 pm (UTC)Omg, this. I need to remind myself of this pretty often. People who love their jobs are lucky but most of us get our fulfilment elsewhere, when we do something for the love of it. Perhaps you can pick one thing to do every day since doing all the things is difficult to wrangle.
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Date: 2024-09-03 01:57 am (UTC)