summer 22 mini 1000 - day 4: connection
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zoomieyohello hello! welcome to todays mini 1000. ive actually been really excited to work on this topic since i started mini 1000.
during my interview, i had said at the end that i love connecting with people. this idea has been buzzing around my head ever since and it really helped click a lot of things into place for me. im naturally an extrovert- i love making friends and being the center of attention. im a leo sun, so this further compounds with that outgoing and vibrant personality. for a good portion of time, i was very lonely and i didnt feel that i was very connected to others. i remember that i ended up joining twitter in order to find new people to talk to. I was really lonely during my first two years of college, but ended up meeting a lot of very dear friends online around that same time. i had forgotten what it was like to have friends and actively maintain friendships. it wasnt until recently though that i realized how much i needed to connect with others.
my initial notes for this piece revolve around a couple key themes:
like ive already explored in both identity and introduction, ive always been inspired by others to want to deeply create things that im proud of. ive wanted to be able to share my voice and explore what it means to create and share and connect.
i described myself as a writer because i love examining the relationships between others. i love stories that respect the human need to connect with others- in every form that exists. my project ideas and dreams revolve around this idea of connecting with others in a way that is authentic and passionate. my love of streaming comes from the direct connecting you do with others- its about showcasing an experience yes, but i also think that streaming is so human. an old newsletter topic i wanted to explore was: “people just want a chance to sit and talk- observations about community and conversation.” it always boils down to connecting. its always about connecting.
i just recently finished omniscient readers viewpoint, and man. its so good. i always go on and on about the story and the respect it treats its characters with and the themes it conveys and again! it all comes back to connecting!!! we, as humans, cant thrive without the connection to others. we need each other to survive.
on twitter, ive been hiding away on a locked priv, enjoying the company of the few mutuals i have there. lately though, ive been looking to reach back out and find a way to connect with people again. ive been wanting to connect with others and participate in fandom a bit again. i want to share media with friends and be able to talk about it at length. i wanna enjoy the rush of meeting new people and the slow getting to know each other stage. i think thats exciting- learning about each others quirks and likes and dislikes. the things that make them laugh. what they enjoy. who their favorite characters are and what trope they like to read. i just think its fun to get to know people. and i always have. i used to make it a point to try and make new friends. i had notes on wanting to participate in character and ship weeks/ and try my hand at zines. i wanted to connect and work on a project with others. ive been thinking about this a lot- in order to connect, you have to share.
in order to share though, you have to be vulnerable. this isnt something i considered in identity or introduction but looking at it now, in order to connect, in order to create an introduction around your identity, you have to be vulnerable. you have to be willing to reach out and try and create bonds. a close friend of mine reminded me that in choosing to care for others, you have to allow yourself to potentially get hurt. you have to allow that vulnerability to really create real, meaningful connections. i think that for a long time, i was very guarded in order to protect myself from loneliness that i really did forget that friendships and connections are built slowly. that its okay to be a little silly and a little embarrassed. im a bit too earnest in that i’ll just tell people that i want to be their friend, but how else are you supposed to do it?
ive already said it and ill keep saying it- i love others work!!! i love that glimpse into other peoples mind. i love status updates and long form rambles or chatty streams or whatever other form of sharing that people want to do. i just love it so much. i love and value authenticity, so it comes as no surprise ahahaha. i think that what im trying to get at, is that i wanna do that myself, but i also wanna inspire that same thing that i get inspired by. sharing media as a love language and inspiration in others online are the only ways i know how to say it. i think that i just wanna form connections based on all these things. i want to be vulnerable enough to really make real connections. i want to continue to create based on these values and embracing this instead of shying away from it.
i ran into this problem on twitter. i wasnt comfortable with the idea of sharing who i was, or trying to meaningfully cultivate friendships with people online. i was really careful about not letting myself get hurt. i think this really ended up hurting me more, because i never found the connections i was looking for. now as i move forward, i want to try again, with a new frame of reference. i want to connect with others through shared interests and passions. i want to reach out to those that inspire me, and let them know that their work does matter (cheesy).
i think that ultimately, i want to connect and in order to connect, i had to understand the point of connecting and what it meant to me. a very dear friend of mine allows me the space every week to do a weekly check in on how im feeling. i typically end up writing these huge paragraphs of exploratory thoughts and the ideas buzzing around in my head, but it also allows me to be a bit grounded and work out anything thats been stuck for too long. i look forward to these check ins every week bc it gives me a chance to connect. i frequently take ideas from check in and send the notes to other friends, bc i think theyll enjoy it as well. the ever expanding web of connections.
in an old microjournal from april i detailed this idea:
i just wanna connect with and talk to people!!! i wanna be around like minded creators and friends and people to be inspired by. ive been looking into the concept of rss feed and resonance calendars, but those are only loosely created to connecting but i wanted to mention them!!!
i think that for tonight, ive covered what i needed to on connection. theres honestly a bit of a floating idea that im not quite sure of the shape of, but its related to connection and community i think? maybe one day ill be able to sit down and write about it and share it with you. talk to you soon.
word count: 1,435
reading time: 5 minutes
during my interview, i had said at the end that i love connecting with people. this idea has been buzzing around my head ever since and it really helped click a lot of things into place for me. im naturally an extrovert- i love making friends and being the center of attention. im a leo sun, so this further compounds with that outgoing and vibrant personality. for a good portion of time, i was very lonely and i didnt feel that i was very connected to others. i remember that i ended up joining twitter in order to find new people to talk to. I was really lonely during my first two years of college, but ended up meeting a lot of very dear friends online around that same time. i had forgotten what it was like to have friends and actively maintain friendships. it wasnt until recently though that i realized how much i needed to connect with others.
my initial notes for this piece revolve around a couple key themes:
connection - the desire to emulate others in my own work, creating relationships and bonds. what it means to participate in communities and what it means to share work. the act of choosing to care for others and allowing myself to be hurt. talk about weekly check in. the desire to build friendships. sharing media as a love language. inspiration in others online.
like ive already explored in both identity and introduction, ive always been inspired by others to want to deeply create things that im proud of. ive wanted to be able to share my voice and explore what it means to create and share and connect.
i described myself as a writer because i love examining the relationships between others. i love stories that respect the human need to connect with others- in every form that exists. my project ideas and dreams revolve around this idea of connecting with others in a way that is authentic and passionate. my love of streaming comes from the direct connecting you do with others- its about showcasing an experience yes, but i also think that streaming is so human. an old newsletter topic i wanted to explore was: “people just want a chance to sit and talk- observations about community and conversation.” it always boils down to connecting. its always about connecting.
i just recently finished omniscient readers viewpoint, and man. its so good. i always go on and on about the story and the respect it treats its characters with and the themes it conveys and again! it all comes back to connecting!!! we, as humans, cant thrive without the connection to others. we need each other to survive.
on twitter, ive been hiding away on a locked priv, enjoying the company of the few mutuals i have there. lately though, ive been looking to reach back out and find a way to connect with people again. ive been wanting to connect with others and participate in fandom a bit again. i want to share media with friends and be able to talk about it at length. i wanna enjoy the rush of meeting new people and the slow getting to know each other stage. i think thats exciting- learning about each others quirks and likes and dislikes. the things that make them laugh. what they enjoy. who their favorite characters are and what trope they like to read. i just think its fun to get to know people. and i always have. i used to make it a point to try and make new friends. i had notes on wanting to participate in character and ship weeks/ and try my hand at zines. i wanted to connect and work on a project with others. ive been thinking about this a lot- in order to connect, you have to share.
in order to share though, you have to be vulnerable. this isnt something i considered in identity or introduction but looking at it now, in order to connect, in order to create an introduction around your identity, you have to be vulnerable. you have to be willing to reach out and try and create bonds. a close friend of mine reminded me that in choosing to care for others, you have to allow yourself to potentially get hurt. you have to allow that vulnerability to really create real, meaningful connections. i think that for a long time, i was very guarded in order to protect myself from loneliness that i really did forget that friendships and connections are built slowly. that its okay to be a little silly and a little embarrassed. im a bit too earnest in that i’ll just tell people that i want to be their friend, but how else are you supposed to do it?
ive already said it and ill keep saying it- i love others work!!! i love that glimpse into other peoples mind. i love status updates and long form rambles or chatty streams or whatever other form of sharing that people want to do. i just love it so much. i love and value authenticity, so it comes as no surprise ahahaha. i think that what im trying to get at, is that i wanna do that myself, but i also wanna inspire that same thing that i get inspired by. sharing media as a love language and inspiration in others online are the only ways i know how to say it. i think that i just wanna form connections based on all these things. i want to be vulnerable enough to really make real connections. i want to continue to create based on these values and embracing this instead of shying away from it.
i ran into this problem on twitter. i wasnt comfortable with the idea of sharing who i was, or trying to meaningfully cultivate friendships with people online. i was really careful about not letting myself get hurt. i think this really ended up hurting me more, because i never found the connections i was looking for. now as i move forward, i want to try again, with a new frame of reference. i want to connect with others through shared interests and passions. i want to reach out to those that inspire me, and let them know that their work does matter (cheesy).
i think that ultimately, i want to connect and in order to connect, i had to understand the point of connecting and what it meant to me. a very dear friend of mine allows me the space every week to do a weekly check in on how im feeling. i typically end up writing these huge paragraphs of exploratory thoughts and the ideas buzzing around in my head, but it also allows me to be a bit grounded and work out anything thats been stuck for too long. i look forward to these check ins every week bc it gives me a chance to connect. i frequently take ideas from check in and send the notes to other friends, bc i think theyll enjoy it as well. the ever expanding web of connections.
in an old microjournal from april i detailed this idea:
i think that everyone should have a newsletter or blog so i can keep up with them. let them make silly little posts on silly little blogs and let me interact and see what your cookin up there in your noggin. i so desperately wish for ways to keep up with my friends and their goings on. i so wish for a lovely little community of connected individuals w newsletters or blogs that we all comment and connect on. i really want a dw or substack community where i can talk to similar ppl w similar mindsets.
i just wanna connect with and talk to people!!! i wanna be around like minded creators and friends and people to be inspired by. ive been looking into the concept of rss feed and resonance calendars, but those are only loosely created to connecting but i wanted to mention them!!!
i think that for tonight, ive covered what i needed to on connection. theres honestly a bit of a floating idea that im not quite sure of the shape of, but its related to connection and community i think? maybe one day ill be able to sit down and write about it and share it with you. talk to you soon.
word count: 1,435
reading time: 5 minutes
