wont it be fun to achieve all your dreams?
Feb. 8th, 2022 06:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
zoomieyodo you know how much there is to do? there's so much i want to try. i get so excited for all the production aspects. the learning. the work and flow that i can potentially do.
ive been described on multiple occasions to be passionate and enthusiastic. this vibrant love of potentiality and possibilities and an unyielding hope and optimism that i can achieve everything that i want.
i've been fluctuating lately- an up and down roller coaster of self doubt and self belief. a tightrope walk between love and hate for everything swirling in my brain. i want to change. i want to balance everything in a fun little dance. wanna feel the way the sun kisses my skin and i spin and smile and twirl about singing whatever has caught my ear this time.
i want to live a healthier life. i want to work out and get enough sleep and go to bed early and get up early and work out. i want to feel myself getting stronger and have silly little morning routines and journal. i want to commit to the craft and write every morning. i want to disconnect from my phone, to feel like im making progress to see how ive grown.
i wanna be the it girl. the main character. that girl. you know. i wanna have all my shift together. i wanna be ahead in my classes. i wanna graduate and feel powerful. i wanna study and learn and do all the things. i wanna draw and write and feel this passion and growth and experience. i wanna feel bright and electric. i wanna feel ethereal and overflowing and exciting. i wanna disconnect myself from the social media drip that im addicted to. i wanna fill my time with creating. with growing and experiencing everything. i wanna do it all! i wanna do it all! i wanna be so much better than i am now. its not gonna happen overnight but by god if i start then it wont stop. if i start then im on my way! im making it happen.
i feel like all ive done for years and years now is stay stuck in this moat of sadness and mopeyness where i doubted everything. why do i doubt myself? why do i run from what i love? it doesnt have to be perfect today. it wont be what i see in my mind and itll take hard work but youve always loved the work... how do you make life bend to the hands of a 125 pound 5 foot 6 inch girl? you make it bend by treating it gently and molding and changing and following all of those tangent daydreams until you feel that overwhelming love pour out of everything you do and everything you create. you take its hand gently and pull it along on all of those adventures you desire and you run. you hold lifes hand and you run with it.
life is like clay and its tough and it sucks sometimes but i can create so much. theres so much potential and possibility and theres so much you can do.. theres so much more to life than fearing the future and reliving the past. in this moment, i can take any number of steps to get me closer to what i want.
do you remember the days before your 22nd birthday? do you remember how much you were doing? why dont you do it again? do you remember when you were 16 and studying all your subjects and learning to tweak the code in your tumblr? do you remember when you were 8 and sitting in the mud, trying to make little pots? do you remember the spring when you were 20 and the writing practice you had? how about when you were 12/13/14 and getting up at four and going to the gym no matter how cold because you wanted abs so bad?
you are still all these versions of you. you havent disappointed them. you havent failed them. you are still her. she is still you. you are so so capable. you have so much you can do.
i want to take my hand gently and lead myself back to those moments. the moments of pure love and unbridled laughter and happiness. those periods of focus and fun and finding what life really feels like. it's not going to change overnight, but the best things take time. its time to step into the sun. its time to be in love with life.
ive been described on multiple occasions to be passionate and enthusiastic. this vibrant love of potentiality and possibilities and an unyielding hope and optimism that i can achieve everything that i want.
i've been fluctuating lately- an up and down roller coaster of self doubt and self belief. a tightrope walk between love and hate for everything swirling in my brain. i want to change. i want to balance everything in a fun little dance. wanna feel the way the sun kisses my skin and i spin and smile and twirl about singing whatever has caught my ear this time.
i want to live a healthier life. i want to work out and get enough sleep and go to bed early and get up early and work out. i want to feel myself getting stronger and have silly little morning routines and journal. i want to commit to the craft and write every morning. i want to disconnect from my phone, to feel like im making progress to see how ive grown.
i wanna be the it girl. the main character. that girl. you know. i wanna have all my shift together. i wanna be ahead in my classes. i wanna graduate and feel powerful. i wanna study and learn and do all the things. i wanna draw and write and feel this passion and growth and experience. i wanna feel bright and electric. i wanna feel ethereal and overflowing and exciting. i wanna disconnect myself from the social media drip that im addicted to. i wanna fill my time with creating. with growing and experiencing everything. i wanna do it all! i wanna do it all! i wanna be so much better than i am now. its not gonna happen overnight but by god if i start then it wont stop. if i start then im on my way! im making it happen.
i feel like all ive done for years and years now is stay stuck in this moat of sadness and mopeyness where i doubted everything. why do i doubt myself? why do i run from what i love? it doesnt have to be perfect today. it wont be what i see in my mind and itll take hard work but youve always loved the work... how do you make life bend to the hands of a 125 pound 5 foot 6 inch girl? you make it bend by treating it gently and molding and changing and following all of those tangent daydreams until you feel that overwhelming love pour out of everything you do and everything you create. you take its hand gently and pull it along on all of those adventures you desire and you run. you hold lifes hand and you run with it.
life is like clay and its tough and it sucks sometimes but i can create so much. theres so much potential and possibility and theres so much you can do.. theres so much more to life than fearing the future and reliving the past. in this moment, i can take any number of steps to get me closer to what i want.
do you remember the days before your 22nd birthday? do you remember how much you were doing? why dont you do it again? do you remember when you were 16 and studying all your subjects and learning to tweak the code in your tumblr? do you remember when you were 8 and sitting in the mud, trying to make little pots? do you remember the spring when you were 20 and the writing practice you had? how about when you were 12/13/14 and getting up at four and going to the gym no matter how cold because you wanted abs so bad?
you are still all these versions of you. you havent disappointed them. you havent failed them. you are still her. she is still you. you are so so capable. you have so much you can do.
i want to take my hand gently and lead myself back to those moments. the moments of pure love and unbridled laughter and happiness. those periods of focus and fun and finding what life really feels like. it's not going to change overnight, but the best things take time. its time to step into the sun. its time to be in love with life.
911 help i’ve been m*rdered
Date: 2023-03-03 01:09 am (UTC)i want to take my hand gently and lead myself back to those moments. this!!! i joke that 2023 is my year of fucking around and finding out (positively) but maybe i need to adopt vlogbrothers’ motto of “take it down a notch” because is it worth throwing shit at the wall to see what sticks when i could just. take my time to test things one at a time. with attention and care, something is bound to work.
thanks for righting my axis
Re: 911 help i’ve been m*rdered
Date: 2023-03-15 02:31 am (UTC)we are in this together this year of leading ourselves gently back to those moments!!