📰 weekly reporter 07.13-07.26
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zoomieyo📰 bi-weekly reporter
— reflecting
I can't believe I'm up to 27 editions of weekly reporter... strange how far it's come and how far I want to keep taking it. feeling very proud of this tiny little writing project I have. (edit: found out I misnumbered the volumes (used 22 twice LOL) so I had to correct it... whoopsieee)
similar thoughts to the last few reflections in the harsh and self critical vein of what I'm doing and how I'm spending my time... what goals I have or haven't achieved.. how can I do better, so on and so forth. I have a tendency to run away, and to avoid things. I'm not very good at commitment. I don't like to describe myself this way (what you say is what you do) and there's a pretty big desire internally to change this... because I haven't always been like this. I made a couple of stumbles (nothing truly drastic) that have been plaguing me with doubt for a while now... and I think in the back half of the year, I want to overcome and change that. it aligns with my core theme of doing already... and I think it's the focus I need to overcome said problems... as I tried to explain this, I felt the desire to just brain dump ideas into a doc.. and just leave it as incomprehensible and raw. sometimes I pad the doc with explanation to get people up to speed... and I'd like to stop doing it unprompted. I just want to post and people can either fill in the blanks with whatever provided information and judgements you can make or.... they'll just ask realistically. let whatever obviousness come I suppose.
been feeling very resistant to writing.
— enjoying
I bought a car! well. actually I got a loan for a car but that doesn't matter. I have a car! this was my next big planned purchase (that got moved up a few years due to the engine dying in my daily driver) and wow. it's so nice. I was driving to the bookstore today and I have no buyers remorse AHAHAA. the process was simultaneously stressful and not- so many factors that were easily resolved, but took a lot of work on my part- and now that it's all over.... I'm really enjoying the modern amenities of a new car. it's a 2024 clubman and it's such an upgrade from the 2010/2013 mini coopers, I've driven up until now. I was driving home today and I just couldn't believe how smooth it was- what do you mean there's no road noise...?
ALSO. realized I might have accidently manifested my car. I was sitting in traffic one afternoon and just happened to look down at the steering wheel and kinda posed my hand and then I remembered my vision board for 2025 on pinterest. so when I got home I took a look and low and behold one of the first pins I added to the board was an interior shot of a clubman. felt kinda insane to realize it
almost forgot about my first lime scooter adventures AHAHAHA. so I work downtown, and I have parking at a parking deck through work. so for trivia last week, I parked my car in the deck and scootered over to the trivia place which was like... 3 mins away via scooter- literally around the block. I felt like I was gonna crash the whole time BUT IT WAS SO FUN AHAHA. the next day, I went out for pizza downtown and took the scooter there, picked up my pizza order, and scootered back to work. lime congratulated me on my longest ride yet: a whooping 11 minutes. in trivia, we placed fourth, but we had a great time, I was able to participate a lot in answering questions and for whatever reason, my phrase of the night was "I concur (with the answer we've chosen)". we made fourth place despite being 6th, then 8th, so all things considered, it was a success for me!
— playing
LADS: xavier's new myth is GORGEOUS. I love that he has a claymore and it's playing into the more... darker(?) aspects of his character. I'm kinda meh on his long hair.. I feel like his bangs could have been better done imo. but I'm still excited for the myth!!!! xavier is probably number one in my lads ranking honestly (truthfully, I'm an OG3 enjoyer but I really do like all of them!!!) sigh... the parenthesis don't really explain anything.. for now, an aside about lads bias:
OG3 are easily my top preferred, but I do appreciate caleb and sylus's stories... I tried to convince myself that zayne was my number one (as he was the first chara I did a real deep dive into his card stories and such) but I think xavier takes the cake for me... he also unfortunately plays right into my usual Type: blonde hair and light eyes (typically green eyed charas, but we will make an exception for this wolf in sheeps clothing)... anyway....did this random bias tangent even clarify anything about my preferences I dont think it did at all... i think my sylus and caleb "lack of interest" is because I just haven't read enough of their stuff to really like them bah... I also need to catch up on main story.... and maybe then I'll be able to make.... better comments. I've pretty much just read card stories and events... fake lads lore enjoyer here sorry........ this is also the reason I haven't written much but drabbles in my own notes... I dont feel like I've actually done enough research to be able to write them in character and with proper justice! (new goal.... finish main story... for gwarentz comm.... for writing..... you can do it!)
new genshin update looks cool.... hsr is siren songing me, and I've been considering getting back into it... I've been playing this silly game with 10,000 levels and it's a bunch of those puzzle games... fun to waste time with AHAHAHA I think I'd like to supplement my gaming diet with some stand alone games soon.. pokemon legends za(????? is that its even called ????) looks cool....(I've only seen chara art LOL) if it's like legends arceus which I enjoyed. I think Atelier Yumia also came out so I need to investigate there as well.
pokemon aside.... I was thinking about this in the shower and in the pokemon games I played on the gameboy color in my youth.... (emerald, leaf green, fire red, sapphire...???) and if I remember correctly. why did we move into those tiny towns, just to leave on our big pokemon adventure. wasnt the dad a gym leader too???? I dont remember the explanation for this. anyway. I want to play whatever modern version those games were... I never finished them
— obsessing
car on the brain... stress on the brain.... no time for real true obsessing lately. *looks at gaming section*..... ok maybe I've been obsessing over LADS whats new. also I keep looking for reasons to ride the lime scooters downtown again, but I haven't found one yet.
same obsession loop of "what can I be doing differently?" and also. money........
— recommending
I have a lot of stuff I actually wanna recommend this week but it's like a weird scattered collection: my favorite band waterparks put out a new song!, this article about the water problems due to data centers, ORV NOVEL out in english!!! in physical copies!! EVERYONE CHEER!!!
there's more but I cant find the links... once again I need to start a better collection system ugh.
— treating
bought orv novel and vol one of the manhwa at the bookstore on tuesday when the novel got released yay!
in food news, mom made awesome brownies, and dad made chicken parm... pizza last week for lunch... burgers and a delicious calzone over the weekend.... we had awesome barbeque for lunch today too.
— encountering
feeling very very messy lately- messy room, messy thoughts... probably need to really take the time to organize and clean up everything as we start to head towards august blah.....
I house sat a couple days last week and they had a hammock in the backyard that I laid in. the breeze came through, and while it was pretty hot, it was a really nice moment. the birds and the cicadas were making all kinds of noise too. it was really peaceful as I swayed gently in the hammock. I remember the colors of the sky and the trees, and how it was kinda uncomfortably hot until that breeze blew in.
— restoring
I have been crawling into bed and just passing out lately. I feel so tired all the time!!! we've been going to the gym a little less, but I don't think I'm getting enough rest....
📊 stats report
last week
?????????— 3 goals for the upcoming week
☐ rough draft goals post/doc
☐ varied life admin stuff
☐ find a stretching/mobility/flexibility routine
📥 editors recap
had something else I was gonna say but as I made room to write it, i lost it....
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- Charlotte Bronte, Jane Eyre
on writing
been feeling very resistant towards writing lately.... maybe I've been a little too stressed with work? maybe since I've also been avoiding some life admin tasks, I can't get into the writing groove... sigh. maybe I just need to come up with a good routine for writing? or maybe I'm just putting too much pressure on myself? been thinking a lot about writing goals, and what I want to do...in the futureeeeeee.... I'd like to talk about word counts and writing progress.. what I've worked on every week. I'm torn on including gwarentz data here or making it a separate box... of course I can do both as I see fit right? maybe sometimes it's more of a data focus and others i can include authors notes or struggles. everything is flexible i suppose.
after writing some of the other sections, and complaining about my perceived awkwardness in this reporter... i'm thinking I need to get back into journaling and working out some of the frustrations I have privately? the balance of wanting to share and be candid on my blog versus.... needing time to myself and giving myself room to work out ideas before executing them here
current musings: desk edition
got an ad for a duo buy on some pc components... so thinking about the pc set-up (and especially since my birthday is soon!!!) which also makes me wanna update my desk too bahahha. I bought a cute little pegboard today that I need to hang up, but I need to move some other wall hangings before I do that .__.there was a tweet going around a couple days ago about decorating your space and feeling nervous that you wouldn't like how it looked. tbh i couldn't understand this concept at all. my space is always half finished, I know how and what I still want to change.
I'd really like to unbox all the stuff I have to the left of my desk and redo all my pinboards too... sigh. also been looking at couches on instagram... daydreaming about my own place eventually.
been thinking about zoomieyo studio a lot. I wanna get back into pottery. wanna host a cool site. wanna make stuff. wanna try tabling at a convention. want to make a business card. want to make with intention. wanna sell stuff. run a tiny business all my own. sigh. dreams can be reality if you work towards it.
media recap
📚 reading: looking forward to rereading orv novel!!!!📺 watching: had a work event and we saw Hair. why we watched that as a work event, i have no idea.
looking forward to watching dandadan s2!
🎵 listening: red guitar by waterparks / mega tskr by camellia and nanahira / goin'! by camellia and nanahira as well
🎮 playing: got back on hsr for one (1) day and wow. i forgot how much stuff that game had going on. sad i missed phainon banner.....
did two whole days of nyt games this past week... been too busy doing actual work to play my silly daily puzzles... gosh...
trying to think of anything I've read or watched... uhhhh maybe a movie on tv or something....?
soooo i was driving to work wednesday morning.... and i realized an old concept for a newsletter i was going to write that focused on 3 items: creation, curation, and cultivation... i'm not sure how to fit these in here.... buuuuutt maybe? except this week is a terrible example because I have done none of these three things HHAHA
used my planner to write down all my upcoming bills and things and WOOOWWWWW i miss using a daily planner.
sooooo i wanna start using my planner more... both for actual planning things and for art/deco journaling.. went and saw Hair the production and i kept the ticket and playbill to be able to cut it up... have a cute little journaling date with a friend of mine tomorrow too. I think I wanna print some pics for the journal... or maybe deco toploaders YAY
this section was originally meant for the meat and potatoes of the essay... mostly musings? but i think reporter pretty much covers that ahaha. i used to worry if cultivation and creation were too close in concept... had a half lightbulb moment to read back over those old newsletters again and see what ideas I can reconnect with and develop. been slowly developing a better idea of what I want to write about for the goals post too.
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