weekly reporter 01/05-01/11

goodness how is it already the middle of the month? just got done with a little gaming sesh on zzz and now its time for weekly reporter and then off to bed!

R.E.P.O.R.T.E.R.

— reflecting
big things floating around in my mind are 2025 goals; "am I cool?" -> "trying to be the coolest girl you know"; and something else that now completely evaporated from my mind.. so we will talk about the first two and hopefully it comes back...

so. 2025 goals. man. so many complex feeling about this. torn between following the astrology of it all- waiting for astrological new year.. or being present and setting them now. honestly, the question of "am I cool?" arises from wanting to be cool. wanting to do cool stuff in the new year. wanting to do stuff.. I have a general direction for goals and things but I haven't been able to write it without wanting to pull out all my hair. I want to.... live more this year? be intentional with my time and energy.. work on projects, achieve things.. track goals and projects and habits.. actually feel like I made progress.. I'm starting this slow jog of a "path" and I'm looking around wondering.. what else can I be doing? how can I really be living? how can I be cooler? how can I eventually inspire others? ah ha! the other idea is "working with the garage door open," "bread crumbing," "doing the cringe thing that brings a lot of return," which uhm. sounds weird but let's see if I can kind of explain..
so all of these come from a bunch of inspirations that I'll probably link in their related thing but its about putting your work out there and giving people who give a shit a chance to actually see what you are doing. raising the chance for your work to be seen.. I really need to start some kind of link list for all this stuff.. maybe I really do go for creation, curation, cultivation ha ha ha.. I'm thinking of some kind of inspirations/information list that influences my word view.. would be fun to find and start... oh.... start the digital garden with it I suppose?

so... reflecting is all forward thinking stuff right now.

— enjoying
it snowed here! we got about 8 inches I think? Today my brother stopped by since the roads have cleared up some and we were sledding/snowboarding in the front yard. we used these surfboards from when I used to work retail and they were in a summer display window but they were made of foam so if you shifted your weight wrong they would break.. but it was a lot of fun sledding with the boys.

— playing
I started playing wuthering waves! discord had a quest for it and I saw drip marketing for Brant thinking he was already in the game but I was. sorely disappointed he wasnt. but its fun! reminds me of my genshin days.
playing all these gachas makes me wanna get into cosplay.. I wanna do the more fantastical ones but I dont have any cosplans as of right now.
been playing more zzz because of harumasa... hes so cutieful...
I also downloaded love and deepspace but I have yet to actually play it..........

— obsessing
I made a little playlist of new to me songs from some jrappers I follow... and idk why but some of the beats give me such a... burst of confidence? like I'm at the gym listening to my current playlist and I just feel so cool like the music is really hyping me up!!!
also goals... just obsessed with trying to work out my goals and stuff

— recommending
make sure you are eating enough... pretty sure my recent suffering has been a lack of calories... I need to start packing more food but ugh.
I think I had something else I was gonna rec earlier this week but I can not remember.. its fine! recommending is always so hard to write up compared to other sections..

— treating
mom made pecan brownies, oreo balls, and we went and got pizza and crumbl the other day.. the brownies and oreo balls were for while we were snowed in!!
I think I wanna go out for ramen this week.. I've been looking at the menus near the office and there's so many places I wanna try..
I'm also considering bringing back cheesecake review.. it used to be something I did on snapchat a couple years ago.. but now I wanna bring it to the blog.... but are there enough cheesecakes locally for me to review...?

— encountering
I am considering rearranging my room... I've been watching feng shui shorts on youtube and I'm trying to keep my room cleaner but its just awful. I think I wanna move the bed back into the corner and put the desk over by the door? but I really like the desk by the window... maybe the bed longways against the wall? move the shrine to the wall against the hallway? idk I need to do something different because I can not keep the current layout clean.

— restoring
I set screen time limits on my phone! I feel like my screen time is starting to creep up too high again and I wanna lower it.. I also set like a bedtime for it.. I'm a little more lenient during the weekend though...