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zoomieyodid a mish mash of prompts from nosebleedclub; was aiming for an end of spring, first quarter summary. very heavy on ~vibes~
crossposted to tumblr
1. What’s your ideal summer breakfast?
toasted thin sliced bread, with laughing cow swiss cheese. over medium egg, and bacon. a small bowl of yogurt, with strawberries, blackberries, and raspberries. a really crispy hashbrown. sunny d, or really ice cold water to drink. toasted edge buckwheat waffle, with chocolate chips, and almonds, sliced. tokyo fog.
2. What personal project(s) will you start this year?
greenhouses... an ongoing project list that gives me space to collect and maintain projects. first pc build...
3. What media have you been consuming lately
love and deepspace... love and deepspace fanfics... wheel thrown pottery videos. fitness videos...
4. Skincare routine
non existent currently... but i miss it. i miss the elemis cleansing balm and then toner and moisturizer. i miss that sticky feeling of layers of hydrating masks and balms.
5. Is your life feeling fast or slow these days
too fast. the hours at work blink by, my weekends are over in a heartbeat. i find myself stretching out long and languid on the saturdays i stay at home... it feels like everything is just around the corner.. i need to finish so much in my personal life still.
6. Describe your life outside the Internet
simple.. i go to work, do my best, and i come home. homework occasionally, lazy evenings, dread and listlessness bubbling away. my weekends are spent with my parents- our frivolous and wasteful habit of weekend shopping after the gym, after going out to brunch. boring.... tasks left unfinished, piling up messes in my head and my room. constantly shuffling things around to try and balance what it is im trying to do. mundane. i drive with the windows down the evening. i try to look out the window at something far away to rest my eyes from computer screens. i stay up too late for someone who gets up so early. we sit and throw the ball for the dogs, laughing as one plays fetch and the other plays rugby. really? my life is lovely... but theres something more i want
7. Do you finish the projects you start?
very rarely. i feel like most of my projects get half finished. constantly stuck waiting for the right timing.
8. Why do you write?
i feel better when i do. that itch i cant ever seem to scratch goes away. theres a catharsis in writing whatever like this... and a hum when i follow a story. theres also fun in linking and connecting words together.
9. How do you feel in spring?
drowsy. sunwarmed. like fresh cut grass. wrapped up in that warm sunshiney scent of clothes-line sundried crispy clothes. (jeans are my favorite) i feel like im behind again too.. chasing behind dreams of something... chasing that last bit of sunset into the door of the house as the streetlamps flicker on. you win some (spring warmth) and you lose some (an hour of sleep)
10. Where are you at this very moment? (Physically, mentally, spiritually)
physically, bent legged in an uncomfortable desk chair, carving out time for the most magical thing i know. the desk is messy.. a big pile of unfinished projects cage me into the tiny space ive given myself to write in. the laptop is old... nearly 7 later on this summer.
im lucky and happy. im giving myself back the joy and magic ive been missing. writing and linking words together. fully engaged in the present of my fingers clicking quickly over the flat keyboard. hopeful. looking forward to the future. the magic hums around me- reminds me that i should be doing this more often. that i should indulge more in what i love. im nervous though too- a lurking anxiety. i havent prepared enough for anything. im on the cusp of the next great thing- living an adult life.. mba, jd, money woes, but all of it falls away. why arent i creating more? why arent i fully indulgent in this life ive worked so hard for?
11. List of things you’ve enjoyed (doing) this month
going to the gym- working on one armed push ups. playing love and deepspace. organizing a sticker folder. evening dinner date with a new budding friend. checking myself out in the mirror. playing with the dogs. eating really good food.
12. Write something dreamy
i read a lovepro drabble a long time ago. it described a character as long and beautiful. i wish i could recapture that weight and tension in the piece. i think of another fanfic author who inspires me endlessly- the floaty bouncy fabric of her works.. i dream to have that command over prose they both have. ive been dreaming of something languid and lovely. short, detailed descriptions... the kind your brain keeps building on and working over. the kind that fills your head with fluffy cotton as you meander down that path while your mind drifts away at work. that creamy silky smooth texture between your fingertips.
13. I’m curious to know about your writing practice - do you set time aside for it? Do you write only when you’ve got nothing else to do? Can you write anywhere, or do you have a specific space (or spaces)? Do you write in cafes, libraries, outdoors? Can you write where there’s a lot of noise? Or do you require silence? Do you prefer writing in the morning, afternoon, or evening? Do you do warm up exercises first? Do you make coffee/tea for your writing session?
i find myself usually writing in the evening, but for a while i was a dedicated morning pages journaler. sitting grumpily at the desk, trying to hit 3 handwritten pages. i used to track it religiously- a kind of healing balm that i needed every day like i need the gym. i dont give myself the luxury of writing until ive done everything else, or until i pressure myself into 1000 words. sometimes i wonder if i treat this lovely little habit as more of a punishment, instead of something i just do, something that happens naturally. I like to write best sitting up, at a table or desk. thats my most productive. i dont have a preference for analog or digital, but i do more words digitally. analog my wrist hurts and i grip my pencil too tight. i dont think i could write 3 pages like i used to without my hand hurting. i like to use blackwing 602s in a moleskine notebook if im writing analog. or the hobonichi multicolor ballpoint freebie in the hobonichi planner. I usually write from the (un)comfort of my bedroom desk, but i really love writing in coffee shops. i dont have a sound preference when i write. sometimes i listen to music, sometimes the ambiance of a cafe. i do like the comforting weight of overear headphones when i write occasionally. even if theres nothing playing. sometimes i do warm ups, and when i do the writing is a lot better. i need to find more warm ups to help grease the gears honestly. i do like to just sit down and start going, letting my mind wander where ever. i usually do matcha if i go to a cafe for writing, at home, i find myself with a bottle of water i keep at my desk or near me.
nosebleedclub; was aiming for an end of spring, first quarter summary. very heavy on ~vibes~crossposted to tumblr
1. What’s your ideal summer breakfast?
toasted thin sliced bread, with laughing cow swiss cheese. over medium egg, and bacon. a small bowl of yogurt, with strawberries, blackberries, and raspberries. a really crispy hashbrown. sunny d, or really ice cold water to drink. toasted edge buckwheat waffle, with chocolate chips, and almonds, sliced. tokyo fog.
2. What personal project(s) will you start this year?
greenhouses... an ongoing project list that gives me space to collect and maintain projects. first pc build...
3. What media have you been consuming lately
love and deepspace... love and deepspace fanfics... wheel thrown pottery videos. fitness videos...
4. Skincare routine
non existent currently... but i miss it. i miss the elemis cleansing balm and then toner and moisturizer. i miss that sticky feeling of layers of hydrating masks and balms.
5. Is your life feeling fast or slow these days
too fast. the hours at work blink by, my weekends are over in a heartbeat. i find myself stretching out long and languid on the saturdays i stay at home... it feels like everything is just around the corner.. i need to finish so much in my personal life still.
6. Describe your life outside the Internet
simple.. i go to work, do my best, and i come home. homework occasionally, lazy evenings, dread and listlessness bubbling away. my weekends are spent with my parents- our frivolous and wasteful habit of weekend shopping after the gym, after going out to brunch. boring.... tasks left unfinished, piling up messes in my head and my room. constantly shuffling things around to try and balance what it is im trying to do. mundane. i drive with the windows down the evening. i try to look out the window at something far away to rest my eyes from computer screens. i stay up too late for someone who gets up so early. we sit and throw the ball for the dogs, laughing as one plays fetch and the other plays rugby. really? my life is lovely... but theres something more i want
7. Do you finish the projects you start?
very rarely. i feel like most of my projects get half finished. constantly stuck waiting for the right timing.
8. Why do you write?
i feel better when i do. that itch i cant ever seem to scratch goes away. theres a catharsis in writing whatever like this... and a hum when i follow a story. theres also fun in linking and connecting words together.
9. How do you feel in spring?
drowsy. sunwarmed. like fresh cut grass. wrapped up in that warm sunshiney scent of clothes-line sundried crispy clothes. (jeans are my favorite) i feel like im behind again too.. chasing behind dreams of something... chasing that last bit of sunset into the door of the house as the streetlamps flicker on. you win some (spring warmth) and you lose some (an hour of sleep)
10. Where are you at this very moment? (Physically, mentally, spiritually)
physically, bent legged in an uncomfortable desk chair, carving out time for the most magical thing i know. the desk is messy.. a big pile of unfinished projects cage me into the tiny space ive given myself to write in. the laptop is old... nearly 7 later on this summer.
im lucky and happy. im giving myself back the joy and magic ive been missing. writing and linking words together. fully engaged in the present of my fingers clicking quickly over the flat keyboard. hopeful. looking forward to the future. the magic hums around me- reminds me that i should be doing this more often. that i should indulge more in what i love. im nervous though too- a lurking anxiety. i havent prepared enough for anything. im on the cusp of the next great thing- living an adult life.. mba, jd, money woes, but all of it falls away. why arent i creating more? why arent i fully indulgent in this life ive worked so hard for?
11. List of things you’ve enjoyed (doing) this month
going to the gym- working on one armed push ups. playing love and deepspace. organizing a sticker folder. evening dinner date with a new budding friend. checking myself out in the mirror. playing with the dogs. eating really good food.
12. Write something dreamy
i read a lovepro drabble a long time ago. it described a character as long and beautiful. i wish i could recapture that weight and tension in the piece. i think of another fanfic author who inspires me endlessly- the floaty bouncy fabric of her works.. i dream to have that command over prose they both have. ive been dreaming of something languid and lovely. short, detailed descriptions... the kind your brain keeps building on and working over. the kind that fills your head with fluffy cotton as you meander down that path while your mind drifts away at work. that creamy silky smooth texture between your fingertips.
13. I’m curious to know about your writing practice - do you set time aside for it? Do you write only when you’ve got nothing else to do? Can you write anywhere, or do you have a specific space (or spaces)? Do you write in cafes, libraries, outdoors? Can you write where there’s a lot of noise? Or do you require silence? Do you prefer writing in the morning, afternoon, or evening? Do you do warm up exercises first? Do you make coffee/tea for your writing session?
i find myself usually writing in the evening, but for a while i was a dedicated morning pages journaler. sitting grumpily at the desk, trying to hit 3 handwritten pages. i used to track it religiously- a kind of healing balm that i needed every day like i need the gym. i dont give myself the luxury of writing until ive done everything else, or until i pressure myself into 1000 words. sometimes i wonder if i treat this lovely little habit as more of a punishment, instead of something i just do, something that happens naturally. I like to write best sitting up, at a table or desk. thats my most productive. i dont have a preference for analog or digital, but i do more words digitally. analog my wrist hurts and i grip my pencil too tight. i dont think i could write 3 pages like i used to without my hand hurting. i like to use blackwing 602s in a moleskine notebook if im writing analog. or the hobonichi multicolor ballpoint freebie in the hobonichi planner. I usually write from the (un)comfort of my bedroom desk, but i really love writing in coffee shops. i dont have a sound preference when i write. sometimes i listen to music, sometimes the ambiance of a cafe. i do like the comforting weight of overear headphones when i write occasionally. even if theres nothing playing. sometimes i do warm ups, and when i do the writing is a lot better. i need to find more warm ups to help grease the gears honestly. i do like to just sit down and start going, letting my mind wander where ever. i usually do matcha if i go to a cafe for writing, at home, i find myself with a bottle of water i keep at my desk or near me.
